Scary Stuff

Two days until the end of the semester and I can't wait for the end. I am so ready for a break. Finals still aren't stressing me out, though. I just want to be home for a while. This semester has been so crazy, but it's been a good crazy. I have learned so many things about Chemistry and so many things about God. I learned that I absolutely hate Chemistry and that I absolutely love God! I am learning how to totally trust him, again. I know I went through this at the beginning of the semester but it is coming up again. I recently got a letter in the mail recommending me to be an RA. I was thrilled! I got really excited...until I actually thought about all the responsibility that came with that position. I had felt kind of like that was where God was leading me, but I had so many doubts about whether I would be good enough at being an RA or if I would be able to be an RA and still do well in my classes. I decided to talk to my RD, even though I felt like I had made my decision not to apply, and she reassured me that if God wanted me on a floor he wanted me and no one else. I was really encouraged after talking to Angie and then I started thinking about it again and got really scared. I didn't really know why. I wasn't sure about whether I would be able to connect with my girls, or if I would have enough time for them. I was scared I would let them down. I started thinking about the reasons I was doubting what to do and realized that I was just scared. We were at a worship service for just Evans Hall and there were about 15 girls. We broke up into groups of 4 and we were sharing prayer requests. While we were worshipping, God just whispered to me that he would never scare me out of doing something, and the devil was using that to pull me away from his perfect plan. I was really overcome with relief and I started to tell the girls in my group about this. One of the girls, our hall Chaplain, asked me if she could tell me something. She told me that when I walked into the room that night she knew that I was going to be an RA. I have never met this women in my life! That was so amazing and so reassuring. God has such an awesome way of giving me peace about things he wants me to do. Needless to say, I picked up an application last week and started filling it out. Although that was really scary, I knew that God was behind it, so it was ok...

Finals

So, finals are approaching and surprisingly I am not stressed at all. Of course that's only because they are still a week and a half away. I know the weekend before finals I will have bitter sweet feelings about them. Although I know I will be stressed about them, the reward of not having to study, go to class or write any papers for a month will be all worth it. I can't wait! This is really short because I have nothing else important to do so I'm not trying to procrastinate...so, that's all I got!